Trying to fill the empty space

[Starshyne]

I thank everyone for what they have said. It makes me feel a lot more "normal" to know that the way I have been feeling the past several days is not out of the ordinary.

And yes...I am the person who packed up my XH's stuff in the garage and went to Disney World with my parents. My parents took me to Disney World because I got a divorce. I will always have to chuckle at that.

One thing that bothers me is that I feel that people in my life (family and friends) and trying to pretend like I was never married. I know my Dad has made some comment to me once about how made a mistake and now I can just move on like it didn't happen. That is the last thing I want. I dont' want to forget it. How can I? But even if I could, I dont' want to. I enjoyed being married. My husband was this amazing guy that opened my eyes to so many things that I would have never have thought of if it weren't for him. Why would I want to pretend like the past 7 years of my life never happened?

I have been meeting new people. People from church and the play who have no idea that I was ever married. I don't feel like I need to announce it to them "Hi, I am Sara. Divorced." But I sort of feel like I am not totally being myself. I don't know..I can't really explain it in words.

At least I know that my feelings aren't odd to have. Right now I feel like a teenager who has been dumped by her boyfriend.

Sara