Forgive AND forget?

[WCW]

The week has been going along pretty good. I feel that H seems a little more relaxed and smiles more around just me, we talk about some day to day plans.
I so want to be a piece of his day to day plans but for now I have to settle for at least that he is telling me some of them instead of just leaving and saying nothing.
It may be me projecting too much of my own feeling into this thought but I feel that H can relax a little since we talked a little and took the cover off his secret cc debt. A lot of work to do there yet.

I was at a meeting and we were introducing ourselves. One guy realized who I was and then talked about H, and how good he is at what he does. I said 'thank you, I will let him know'. The rest of the room exploded and said 'NO, it will go to his head and he will charge us all more!' I said 'ok, then I will tell H he really got ripped up at the meeting' and they laughed. I told H the story and he nearly got flustered at the compliments.

Now the part that is making me rage again, and poor H doesn't even know! I got an email about an event that ow is having and she is looking for help.... I know I just have to learn to deal with this as I am sure there will be more and more of it in the future. I just see red and am angry and full of rage, anything about her sets me off! Rumor has been that I've already bitch slapped her and I sure would love for that rumor to be true! But I have to deal with this, we are both in the horse world and will continue crossing paths. It's a good thing I will be out of the state during her event or there is a good chance I would pull on my best boots and strut into her place.
I know part of it is jealousy in me because she has this Horse Palace that is funded by money she got from D'ing her H to be clear to go full throttle after mine. She doesn't have to work hard, she fell into it. People have told me that my H is the one that designed her place and it has his telltale stamps on it.
I know that I should be happy that my H is home every night and not with her.
BUT I WANT MORE!!!

My great Mom just called to let me know she got her phone fixed. The other day she had said it must have a bad battery because it stays dark all the time. I asked her if it was on as I've tried and tried to reach her on her cell phone but it goes straight to vm. She said she fixed it now, she turned it on. lol I love my Mom!