My Sad WAH Story: Is there Hope?

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[[[[[[Babygirl]]]]]] I can't even imagine the pain you feel/felt with your H's having a child with the ow. My H can't have anymore, he had the snip snip. lol Yes, gal is what I'm working on now. I really need that, for my own sanity. and my door is always cracked, just in case. It just getting a little bit cold in here. brrrrrrrrrrr

sonshyn, I did get my books yesterday. Started "love must be tough" last night and finished it today. It does tend to focus a lot on affairs, but the message is good. Sometimes I just feel like we are too far gone or at least he is for us to be able to heal and move forward together. I've just gotta keep praying and taking care of me.

Sandycay, yes I'm on facebook. my name is my profile so I don't want to announce it here. But I just requested to be friends with schldr. You can PM me and I'll tell ya too.

Sandi2, Thank you for your kind words, every single one helps.

Silent Chrleeder, I am on FB and I requested you as a friend. It's funny you mentioned the teddy bear, my d8 found one for me that I gave her a while back. It used to me mine when I was little. She told me to sleep with it so that I would sleep better. I am on my 2nd book today, DR. lol And I need to start exercising! Lost almost 20lbs on the lbs diet, but put a few back on since I quit smoking. lol I am about 45 minutes south of Olympia! PM Me and I'll tell you where exactly.

Native, Yes, I did that right in the beginning then I got angry when he wouldn't own up to his part in our problems. I know, backslid bigtime. I didn't know what I was doing now after 2 months I have to start over. Isn't Ellen Krideman the Light Her/His Fire Author? If so, I have both of those programs. Didn't have the guts to give it to H. I also have the 5 love languages and His needs, Her Needs.

Sometimes I just want to find H, grab him and shake him and tell him he is making the biggest mistake of his life. After these 2 months I've learned so much about myself and what when wrong in our M. BUT I know that it wouldn't do any good if I did because nothing matters if he isn't interested. Which is what he is showing me, he has no interest in me or us.