Laurie,

Thank you so much for answering. I happen to be here but I am not often on the puter during the day. I want the M back, but truthfully, I am almost - or very - hopeless at this point. I have not talked to him in almost two weeks, but it's only been once a week for the past five months. I have been looking for another job, closer to home, to no avail. I am going to therapy for PTSD. This is helping me, to some degree. I am not posting much. I have resurrected my Sex-starved marriage thread but I don't post to newcomers much at all anymore. (That may change) One never knows the future.

Thank you so much for your answer. I wish I could write more. Maybe tonight,after 10, I can give you a little more detail. But, I do love my H. I just am beginning to believe he does not, and never has loved me. I would love to have a new relationship/marriage with him, but there would have to be changes ON BOTH parts, not just mine.

thank you so much for your help,
poet