As a father I can understand what that pain must be like Carlos.
The only reassurance I can give, as someone whose father walked away and basically never looked back, is that your sons can grow up to be sooo strong with your influence and guidance. The thing that hurt the most as a child and later as a young man was the feeling of rejection. I remember when I went to a friends 21st birthday party in college and his Dad paid for the awesome party and did shots with him that night. I felt so much jealousy and grief in that moment, for the party, but also for all the things I missed out on growing up. Being there for your boys and teaching them what it means to be a man will give them something that so many men in today's society are lacking. At 32, I am only just starting to figure it out.
Spellfire aka Mike
"Women do not like controlling men. They respect and are attracted to men who control themselves. They ultimately are repelled by men who allow themselves to be controlled." -S&A
