Problems what problems... guess... what when I got home and checked my email guess what? That's right no email from him. He told me he would address it when I talked to him about yesterday. That damn elephant is really starting to stink KWIM!
I had a hard time sleeping last night.. I just started suspecting and stupid stuff but you know once your mind goes down that path. I know when he went to TN before he would drive the 8+ hours to D.C. to see her and turn around and drive home. He made sure to tell me last night that he would be in secret briefings early in the morning in TN and then go fly for 5-6 hours... so then I start doing the crazy math in my head wondering if he was setting me up for the no phone call until much later..... see how I am crazy.... I called the hotel that her company uses and she was not checked in last night... so I am jacked up... I never snoop but I couldn't go to sleep until I knew if she was in the country or not. Of course, if she had been what diff would that make? It's not like I could know if he was there. Does anyone know where you can buy a GPS that I can attach to that man. I don't think he's doing anything it would just be nice to KNOW!
I am sorry I hijacked your thread LOL but obviously I am letting this make me crazy!!!! I hate that part when you let your imagination run your thoughts. Okay, I'm off to the rubber room and rock back and forth now. JK and LMAQO
M:47 M:18 D16, S19 1st S 1/08-5/08 Reconciled/May 7, 2008 Left again Nov 9, 2009 I Filed: Nov 17, 2009 Final: April 14, 2010 EX walked away from kids too
I don't think your crazy or jacked up......you're just like the rest of us. A caring human being in a painful position and desperately trying to do whatever you can to get past that pain.
You'll get no 2x4s from me.....people in glass houses don't throw stones!
I didn't go to work today.....I have a sore throat, which gives me a wonderful sexy Kathleen Turner voice, but hurts like the dickens!! So, I am on some good drugs that make me really sleepy.
OK, I need a lingo lesson.....
KWIM, JK & LMAQO mean what exactly....??
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
hey sweetie! not beating from me. you are human, and well we are alike, so i would have asked the same things lol! oh sandycay and you met up? that is so cool! I have meet crissy once, it was really awesome.
ok sweet pea, what are we gonna do on vday??
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Yep, I have met up with sandycay a couple of times now. I drive through her town every week on my way home from C session. She is a really terrific lady with a warm heart, down to earth attitude, and a great sense of humor! And she has the same disability you and I share with that darn broken door between our brain and our mouth!!
OK, V-day......I have no idea. I am taking that Monday after President's day off, so I have a 4 day weekend, but I don't know what to do......I'd love to go to spa with a girlfriend for a couple days, but I don't think I can afford it.
Do you have any ideas? Has your H said what he is going to do? Maybe he will grow a real set of "clinkers" and not let OW manipulations work this time????
(((((hugs)))))
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
The Q was a typo but maybe it should stand for quack. Sorry to hear your sick, that sucks.
I don't know what's up here for VDay either and I'm not asking. H birthday is on the 11th...I'm thinking about throwing a party for him on the 13th but I don't know.
Last year on the 14th I gave H a heartfelt letter which he rebuffed in a nice way (although he still carries in his car side pocket) and then he took the kids and I out to dinner. It was awkward but I never mentioned is Vday so he may have had no clue. I am not saying a word about it... let's see what he does.
M:47 M:18 D16, S19 1st S 1/08-5/08 Reconciled/May 7, 2008 Left again Nov 9, 2009 I Filed: Nov 17, 2009 Final: April 14, 2010 EX walked away from kids too
hey girl if your off today and want to talk, get me your number i have free long distance.
ugh vday, last years still haunts me. the lies, the finding of the receipt he bought and gave her stuff before me. idk. i just want to skip it to be honest. its a huge trigger for me to be honest. I had thought about taking some of my secret stash and getting a hotel for us as a suprise, but to be honest, i am so dang tired of doing all the work and putting the effort into us!
wish me you and sandycay could spa lol!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Ok my friend - so you backslid. Not the end of the world. Happens a lot in the beginning. And I am sorry to say, you are at the beginning.
What you have to remember is that you are having expectations. You are hoping he is going to say something about the two of you. Aint gonna happen now. Get it out of your head.
He is still heavily into his MLC. And no amount of you saying you think if you go to MC it would help is going to help, ya know?
I promise you this, you cannot make this go any faster. And everytime you question him or tell him you think you two could work, adds time to it.
He has to figure this out on his own. You cannot convince him. What he is hearing from you is pursuing. Dont do it anymore.
I know it is hard. I do. It took me at least a year to get it. But the sooner you accept that this is all part of MLC, the better off you'll be.
So, now you know that he is dating. You know he doesnt want to try right now. All difficult to hear, I know. But you dont have to ask those questions anymore. He answered them. Doesnt mean the answers wont change one day. Just means that you cant ask them right now.
S, I know it hurts, I know the fact that he doesnt even want to try makes you crazy. But you have to let him go through this. He needs to figure it all out.
And hopefully one day he will. But let him see someone he wants to come back to. And maybe work on the things that he said bothered him if you feel they are justified. Only if you feel they are.
Dont tell him thats what you are doing. Just do it.
So, dust yourself off, pick yourself up and start again.
You can do this my friend. I know you can. NO MORE QUESTIONS. pinky promise?
Hmmmmm........well, I will agree to re-commit myself to no R talk outside of our C's office (although C has said that he would like to see us talking more together.....).
I don't know how I'm going to handle my session next week with H. I'll have to give that one some real thought.
[[[[[hugs]]]]]
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
