Yes, I do want to be happy. I have been such a freaking Wuss.
I think my counselor would say it's a form of Codependence. We talked about that last meeting.
I'm committed to breaking it. I started yesterday.
That's great Frank. By acknowledging your issue, you've apparently taken the first step. Now what? What's your plan? What are you going to do that's different from what you've been doing?
I remember when my M was in crisis, and I was served with those divorce documents. I realized that it was "now or never". It was not about me understanding or determining when I developed my self-sabotaging issues. I understood that I needed to change my ways, and I knew I needed to change them immediately! But. you can't just snap your finger and expect everything to change, now can you? In my case, I made a list, in my Palm Pilot, of all these things I needed to do, in order to turn my sitch around to (GAL, Stop the Pressuring, Act Happy, Stop being a Wuss, etc.). And I use to look at this list constantly, and especially before any anticipated interaction. I use to repeat it to myself as if it was a mantra, until it started to finally sink in.......
Maybe you can compile a list? Maybe you can share it with us?
