Still no phone call from my H. We did exchange a few emails yesterday morning so I asked if him if he was going to be able to make our C appointment scheduled for tonight or do I need to cancel. He said he would let me know.
I had really bad night last night. I was letting things get to me and I was feeling very alone. My D had gone to watch a basketball game and my S had gone to practice. I had told the kids I was making dinner and I would be waiting for them to get home. About 8:15 my D calls to tell me that she and her brother were going to be late since they were getting something to eat. I just lost it. I just had this overwhelming feeling that I do all these things for everyone else and no one cares. Does anyone else ever feel that way? The kids tried to tell me it was a misunderstanding and that they didn't eat (yeah right) and they couldn't understand what I was so upset about.
About 9:00, I got a text from my H telling me that he just go home and that his trial seem to be going ok. He said that our C appointment for tonight should be ok and he asked how I am and how the kids are. I still haven't replied.
Right now I am struggling with how not to just blast my H when we are at C tonight. We have not spoken in 9 freaking days!!! I just can't understand my H's way of thinking here...seriously, he will probably be surprised that it has been that long...I am sure he hasn't even thought about it.
glam-It is a good thing that your feelings for your H don't cycle. I sometimes question why I don't just move on.
CMNM-As I said, you and I are in the same place...seeing some positives but our H's still find ways to keep their distance. UGH!!!
SC-You are right, each day is a gift and I need to remember that...especially when I have a night like last night.
Grace-How are you? What is new with you? How are are your girls?
Originally Posted By: Grace_O
You know him, I don't, so do you think he's just talk or do you think he means it. How do you think his efforts look/feel to him?
I think my H really means what he says when he says it BUT something keeps him stuck and then he brings up reasons (excuses) why he might not want to recommit, why he likes to be alone. I get so frustrated by all of this, it makes me wonder if I want him back.
