Thanks for the advice CIW. I know very well that I have a LOT to be thankful for, my kids, my family, my friends, my new career. I am healthy and active and am financially secure. I am way ahead of where many people in my position are. And I feel grateful.
I will think about your advice about our history and not abandoning the idea of reconciliation. I am not one to play around with people's affections so if I were to really leave this marriage, I would leave it, no regrets. And if I were to start a new relationship then I would leave my marriage first, and not do what my H did. So you are right, I am at a turning point. I need to think on it for a few days.
I have not any immediate prospects but men are starting to get a lot friendlier lately. I don't pay them any attention, in fact, I am turned off by the idea. However, my counselling is coming to a head and I am getting nervous. We will have a session together for the first time to talk about our separation. Very difficult, painful and I think I will hear some hurtful things about me. More rejection again. I need to detach more and not let it stop my happiness. I can't let him control my happiness anymore. That's my resolution.
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
