Trying to let go........with love!

[Silent Chrleader]

Boy, am I in a funk!!!!

I keep thinking of H and no matter how much I push the thoughts away, they keep coming back! I haven't spoken with him or anything and I don't want to really.......I just hate feeling this way!!

I'm going to IC today......hopefully I'll feel better after that......I usually do come out feeling positive.

I looked at H's and my "Love Horoscope" for the month..... The showed the following.....

Start Love Behind the Scenes
Although there are times when you love to be in the spotlight, you are often more comfortable in quiet, out-of-the-way places where you can slowly warm up to somebody new. For the first half of February you may spend additional time in the shadows, avoiding notice and appreciating more privacy. The Sun will be in your secretive 12th House until February 18, leaving you more chances to connect with someone away from prying eyes. There may be times when you feel ignored yet it's best not to make a big deal out of this. Anything short of out and out abuse is best ignored since you may need this time to rest, relax and reflect on where you stand in relationships and what should be the next steps to take.
On February 18 the life-giving Sun enters Pisces to push you into the foreground. This begins four plus weeks of positive energy that will warm you with self-confidence and nourish you with creativity. It is time to step forward with a new look or a fresh attitude, a moment to take charge of your relationship life instead of waiting for someone else to make the first move. In fact, you may sense your personal power rising as early as February 16 when vivacious Venus cuddles up to your ruling planet Jupiter, followed by Mars' union with Jupiter that is likely to motivate you to take positive action. Another special moment comes on February 23 when your mind awakens to a new perception of relationships and fresh connections are easier to make.

Take Time to Heal
If you're feeling a little off when it comes to personal matters, give yourself a break for the first half of February. So many planets are in your 6th House of Work and Service that it can be difficult to feel free enough to enjoy the company of another person. Your ruling planet Mercury turns forward on the first and will take a couple of weeks to get up to speed. Awkwardness in communication or delays in getting messages may linger. If you've been keeping secrets (even from yourself), the Full Moon on February 9 might spill the beans. The Full Moon in dramatic Leo falls in your very private 12th House where it can cast light on hidden matters. If you're considering exposing something significant about yourself, it's probably wise to do it before then to better control the outcome.
Powerful feelings you've tried to keep to yourself can shed light on relationships. If you're connected to an unreliable or selfish individual, though, this can be a time when his or her behavior becomes more apparent. A major shift starts on February 18 when the Sun enters your 7th House of Partnership, opening a month-long window of opportunity to meet someone new or heal an existing union. It's vital to forgive yourself for any so-called mistakes and to be more flexible with others. Dreamy Pisces is in this part of your chart to remind you that you need a mate with imagination and faith to go with your more logical and critical ways of viewing reality.

Hmmmmmm.........interesting.......I especially like the last sentence on H's.

I just hope it doesn't mean he's going to meet some other Pisces woman!