i dont leave the house for social activity with out her or the kids.
Well, there's your first problem. That's not healthy, and I suggest you start your focus here. Do you know what "GAL" means, as it's referred to on here? "Get a Life" -- do things for YOU, that YOU have always wanted to do. Join a bowling team. Volunteer at an animal shelter. Meet some buds for a beer or to shoot some pool 1x/week (don't overdo this). What would you do if you were divorced? Do THAT.
I agree with Phoenix, you're WAY too focused on her -- right down to your username. This should be about SHAWN right now, not about Amber.
