I have made some major changes, first I realized really quick that anger was not going to be helpful in anyway, I told myself I was not going let that take control of me no matter what and I have lived by that, also my wife & I switch off helping my youngest with homework from week to week. She and end up spending alot of time together since w ends up spending alot of time on weekends away from home. I probably did all the wrong things when the bomb was dropped on me almost two years ago, I felt like I had failed her in letting her know how much she means to me so I told her all the time, I wrote her letters and bought her flowers. I would put a single rose in her car. Everything I did seemed to push her away even further and even now, she acts more disconnected than ever. Their has been no intimacy for almost three years. We still sleep in the same bed, she just gets as far away as possible. She is so cold and bitter towards me most of the time but at night, I can still see the angel in there. I do love her and would gladly put all this behind us if I could. I can't help but wonder though, is she ever going to recover from all this? Maybe she can't, maybe she really does not love me anymore. Maybe I should give up hoping and trying. Life is too short to just keep wondering and waiting.
