Feeling somewhat better today. I cried to many tears the last few weeks. I've been feeling deeply depressed this past week. These past few weeks have been a terrible ride. The anticipated call did not happen today. The only thing that seems to help me is working.
I've been getting down on myself. I don't even feel that good enough for A to come home to. I feel fat and ugly. I want to feel better about myself in this way.
I'm having trouble with these emotions of mine. I need some kind of reassurance, but nothing seems to keep me feeling assured for too long.
