checking in. travelling on business this week. weekend was good, saw some frineds Friday night, other friends for dinner saturday night and sunday stayed in and wathced the super bowl. D21 is all moved back home and so far everything is great. Bad dream last night involving W. won't go ointo it. Her best friend called me at 6:15 AM today saying she had a really bad dream about me getting cut. Told me to be careful. Weird....
Anyway, feeling lazy, almost burnt out. Detaching is really hard on me emotionally and draining. Maintain forgiveness, still walking. I am trying to talk louder so I can hear what I am saying on this walk, its frustrating. We walk, I talk, He smiles, nods and walks with me.
Talked with D17 tonite, she was home. sounded much better to me and talkative, a little more than ususal, but told me all about her day. God how I loved hearing that. I am invited to a ton of things over the next 6-7 weeks. Hate going alone. Keeping thouoghts of her returning to a minimal, all most non existent. Trip reminds me of how I used to call her cause she always worried when I traveled, We would talk and talk. then I basically stopped traveling with this job, and well there's that time line again....
6 months to the day since she dropped the bomb, yesyerday. there's a great memory!
dday read your thread keep up the PMA!!
trying to do the same every day. too much time talking about my sitch this weekend I am afraid. Was told by complete strangers, women, that i am very handsome, and my wife must be crazy. Overheard me talking to my friend who W just visited. My friend told me she is running from responsibilities, no kidding!!!
The harder she runs, the more she drinks, and i am tired of hearing about it. Told kids do not tell me about your mother, I really don't need to hear it. Hold your opinions to yourselves.
Anyway, needed to post, melancholy and lonely on th eroad. all I got is you guys and gals...
