Purple, I really am fine with it. It's how it's supposed to be and I know that and will respect it. In the past it would have driven me to drink, and I would have asked. Not anymore.
It's good that he has somewhere safe to go and get these feelings out. Even if it doesn't work out, it's okay. Why? Because at least this shows that he was willing to make an effort.
If he gets to a different answer about our marriage now (div or stay M), it's okay. He didn't stay in stupid little shell and cry "poor me" the whole time. He took one step out. He let a little bit of light in. He sees a different way. It's up to him. If he takes it, fine. If he doesn't that's fine too. At least now he knows that some people DO survive As. Some people DO put their M back together.
I will be okay no matter what. I know that. It may not be what I want. But that's okay too. Nobody died and made me God. (Thank the Lord!!)
Hugs.
Mel
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
