Hi soulm8. I can understand you're wanting to contact him, and apologize. I hope the info that lodo and other's gave you helps (Dancingqueen?).
Sometimes you just have to let go and move on. Maybe start by really examining your motives for wanting to apologize and see your ex. Your motives could be very selfish. You don't really have any right to expect anything from your ex.
If you are trying to figure out how to be happy, don't think your ex has the answer for you. You've got to find it. The DB book, especially the concept of GAL, is helpful.
It's scary, and you might not succeed (but the odds are you will succeed) if you own your actions, and decide to be happy (not happy in a party, smiling sense - but a deeper happy in living an authentic life).
Closure is a modern concept that may not be real. I know we all talk about it and would love to have it, but it's pretty ephemeral and may not really exist. Don't feel that you Have to have it. Or, find it in yourself, so that you don't Need anyone else, your happiness is not dependant on anyone else.
Ha! I always feel a little like a fraud giving advice, but I do believe what I just wrote.
How are you doing? overall?
M45, W45,S15, D10, Bomb 10/3/06, Moved back in 11/6/06, finally ILY 9/07 last thread
