I am jumping into nothing. That is what I said to H and then sort of hoped I didn't say too much. I told him last night he is right he is running low on time b/c I am patient but there are limits to what I will sacrifice without getting anything in return...
I also said that if he really wanted to try to make it work there would be actions to follow, like calling me more or making time for the two of us without the kids. I told him that would be entirely up to him if he wanted it to happen and I dropped the subject.
Actually I referenced Retro. There was one exercise on values vs. ideals or something like that. It said if you call something a value but you don't take active steps to make it happen, it was really an ideal. Like "I value physical fitness" but you never work out or bother to eat right, then it is an ideal, not a value. I can't remember if those were the right words, I know "ideal" was but not sure on the other one. So anyway I mentioned that exercise from the post-session, he said he remembered it. I just said "That is what you will have to do, show that this is not just an 'ideal' but something you want to make happen."
Anyway I am not jumping into anything even though my mind was considering the ramifications if said jump should occur in the future. I am living like we are not together b/c the fact is, at this time, we are not...
