I'm here........

[SueS]

Starting-

Well, I did this LONG update to the bb on Friday before I left work. Something became all mangled in my system and nothing saved. I was so mad and frustrated that I shut everything down and went home!

H is still at home. Things have been okay with us. Of course not perfect and not much has changed, but for right now, I'm okay.

I have done a few things for myself lately. I have an appointment this Sat. for a cut/color. I can't wait. The color has waited too long and my hair really needs to be cut. It's a treat from my mom. Not something I couldn't do on my own, but she asked if she could treat me to it. Of course I said yes. I sold a few items that I no longer needed and with that money did some shopping for D4 and I. I also......wait for this.....joined a health club. I'll be starting that this week. I'm anxious to get started and to take off some of this weight that I've put on the past 3-4 months and just feel better about me. H gave me some grief about it....saying that it didn't sound like a great deal. I ended up negotiating a much better rate. I struck right back at H telling him that if he felt it wasn't a great deal, then he should have gotten me in at his club. I've always felt like H wants me to be this certain type of person, but whenever I try to be that....or better myself, H comes up with a way to make me feel like I shouldn't do this or that. Now, I know what I just said....when I try to be what H wants.....didn't sound right. I've come to realize that I need to be happy for me and not for H. I know that. Hence, not really giving a 2nd thought to what H thinks about the club I joined, in addition to a few other issues lately.

My parents are coming in this weekend to visit. My mom bought me a book and I can't wait to read it. It was recommended to my niece that is having a lot of health issues. It's called "You Gotta Keep Dancin". She said that it's a great book about having joy in your life and realizing that you have to stop living your life saying things like....if I'd only get that raise I'd be happy. I'm anxious to get it.

I've been in touch with one of our DB friends and she put me in touch with an Al-Anon on-line group. I haven't visited it as much as I should, but I'll get going.

Not a great deal else going on. I felt great on Friday, but I'm feeling a bit low today for some reason. Just not feeling the best. I haven't slept well lately and I've been having more headaches. Not fun.

Well, I really need to get back to work. I'll be on soon again.

SueS