I don't trust the 180 by my husband. I sense that it is forced and yes that angers me. I know I have to keep my anger at bay. I think I let him shove the 2x4 up my you know what for too long and now I find myself just not "caring". I want to care, for me and for my childrens sake, but I just don't know if it's too late. Yet, I can't imagine myself with any other man...I guess I'm on the fence right now.
When I think what my wedding day was like my heart breaks, because I realize how much I loved my H then. I'd like to think that I could love him like that again. However, I know that I don't have that same love for the man that I have been living with for the past 3 years.
Thanks for your honesty...I will pay attention to how I may be perceived by my H. -J
