HI I am so sorry to hear about your situation. I am pretty much in the same boat you are. I started posting in the beginning, but I never kept up and just come here to read different posts. Just by reading about your pain makes me just cry and cry. I know those exact feelings you are going through. I wish I could just e mail you to talk about them privately. I am 44 years old with a 6 year old little girl. It's too painful to post here, even though I know it helps. Maybe one day soon I can post again.
