I just wanted to post this .

I know *I* sound like a craze GRANOLA EATING HIPPIE CHIC~
and that I am beating a dead horse
But frankly *I* love granola...
;\)


I would like to say that if you use SSM or DB in conjunction with Byron Katies work.

You would transform in a shorter time.

180s are turnarounds.
My old mantra was ?
Will this take me closer or further away from my goal?
Sometimes I see how others struggle with knowing what the book is trying to say.
So I mean no disrespect to DB or MWD.
DB saved my M , along with my hard work....... no doubt about that. I changed for the better.

I love this place.
I have been allowed to be free with my thoughts and say them out loud and learn to be courageous.

I found myself thru this process.
yes it sounds Cliche.
But I really did find myself.

MY H not tolerating the way things were and the OW.
Were my extreme wake up call.

OUCH~!~!~!~!~!


I still kept myself in the prison of my making by sort of living for myslef and focusing on me but not enough to free myself totally.


I see that now....

I saved my M and then slowly started giving up myself again.

I didnt have the right tools.

I read so may books and analyzed myself to death.

May 1st of this year wil mark 3 years of the hard as h&ll RECONCILING.

If I continue to grow and H continues to as well?

I will then post my STORY in success stories.

I never did , even though I was told over and over again to do it.
I wanted more than "SAVING IT".
I wanted to be Happily Married.
Not like in the Fairy Tales.
But content and loved and respected. Like he was committed to me too.

I wanted for him to open his heart and yet i had an escape plan in the back of my head.
Just on case, he leaves.
So it wont hurt so much.
yes I gave too much, but at a price.
The price was I was holding back the very thing he always wanted MY SELF , the REAL ME.

I didnt do it on purpose but I di dget in my own way.
I accepted a lot of bad behavior in the name of that love.


I am so glad to be here and to have grown from this.

I am happy .... I have come full circle.


God bless,
Alicia


* I hope it made sense ... It just came out and I wanted to post.

Thanks FIB~ you have made me think this morning. And now I see that I have finally done what I was supposed to do all along.
LOve ME~!~!

It isn't selfish or cliche.
It is NECCESSARY~

God bless you...