It was.. is.. and has been a joint effort. This does not change Maria. You both choose different paths to "overcome" the shortcomings you felt. Neither was right.. Neither was wrong.
"Forrest, if he scared by me,then so be it."
This is bordering on being selfish. It is not a fair thing to say. Most likely this is one of the biggest things holding you back.
"I wont change to accommodate him."
I don't want you to change. I want you to see the whole picture.. when you do.. your view of that picture might change. It may not be as pretty.. or it may be more beautiful than before.
"FG, my surprise for yesterday was I didnt kick him out. the day before yesterday I bought him a belt I had noticed he needed. Today, I will call him."
That made me LOL a bit. It's a start.
"He didnt know? You honestly think he didnt know? I was nothing to him. And sometimes I think I still am."
I don't care how much you think you know someone.. chances are they don't see things like you do. You cannot assume that they do. One of the reasons.. I come up with all these crazy ideas.. is mainly to simply point out that someone could see what is going on in that situation... way different than you do. It's like when you have 2 witness to a crime. They might have similar stories.. but 9 times out of 10.. something is going to be glaringly different. That difference may make the crime impossible to solve.
The simple point is 2 people watched the same thing happen.. and had 2 different stories to tell.
"why should I be unhappy?"
Hostile.. you are just hostile.
Let me restate this.. just in case you missed it..
Maria.. all I am gonna say.. is you have your work cut out for you. This right here.. what you are doing.. is gonna be really hard. This 7 weeks.. is gonna feel like 7 years.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
