Thanks R - Chin up to you too...and yes we'll make it through one way or another!
I was thinking about you and your sitch...take care that you don't let W walk all over you. I say this b/c I made that mistake w/my H for about 6 months and I ended up w/depression. I know the idea "let the WS do their own thing and you GAL" is great in theory, but sometimes it can be negative if you don't keep on top of it. Then you end up like me on anti-depressants. You seem very strong for someone in the midst of this nightmare...keep it up and take care of YOU! -J
AD2, if you are out of rope then drop it and let go. I sense a huge amount of anger in your posts. Living with MLC'r for so long can sure bring out the worst but you have to learn to exist peacefully and ride it out or end what you have left with your H. That is your choice. Your bad actions will prolong him staying away.
Your H has done a bunch of positive 180's in the last month. Do you like that?
Can you still love your H?
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
I don't trust the 180 by my husband. I sense that it is forced and yes that angers me. I know I have to keep my anger at bay. I think I let him shove the 2x4 up my you know what for too long and now I find myself just not "caring". I want to care, for me and for my childrens sake, but I just don't know if it's too late. Yet, I can't imagine myself with any other man...I guess I'm on the fence right now.
When I think what my wedding day was like my heart breaks, because I realize how much I loved my H then. I'd like to think that I could love him like that again. However, I know that I don't have that same love for the man that I have been living with for the past 3 years.
Thanks for your honesty...I will pay attention to how I may be perceived by my H. -J
