H just moved out, 13 months post-bomb

[Dawn of Hope]

25yrs (j), thank you so much for taking a significant chunk of your time to help me along, for all of your advice and counsel, and for padding the 2x4s. I appreciate all of the support I have received here; I think I also need a certain amount of accountability, so I particularly value your comments for that reason, and also because you are rebuilding your M. You have given me quite a lot to think about, and I will need to respond to the particulars when I have a bit more time. In the meantime, THANK YOU, and I hope you keep posting to me and helping me with those needed attitude adjustments!

Glam, thank you for checking on me and posting. You know I always value your thoughts on my sitch. How are you doing?

I did, after prayerful consideration, decide to go ahead and send H a text; all it said was "Happy birthday!" It made me a little nervous, contacting H after over 5 weeks of NC, but not worried about whether it was the right thing to do. I have peace about that aspect of it. It would be unusual for him not to respond to me contacting him (and it's not as though I've been harassing him or asking him for anything), but this whole sitch is so out of character that it's hard to tell what is "normal" for him any more. Regardless, I am not worked up about whether he will respond or not. When he moved out, he did say (of his own accord) that it was okay for me to contact him, and this is the first time I have done so since then...so I think even a MLC mind would have trouble construing my text as something negative.

Okay, enough about that. My mother left this morning, and is back home now, and I was going to go to church and a couple of other activities, but I had a headache and was very tired from being quite short on sleep for the last couple of days, so I just went back to bed. I still have the headache (which I think is from my erratic sleep schedule) but I would like to see what I can do to kick this bedtime problem to the curb. Working on that...

Will post more later (especially responses to 25yrs' comments and questions). For now, I need to start winding down so that I have a chance of seeing daylight tomorrow.

Peace,
Dawn