You guys are asking too much from me. This is the same person you are talking to you've been talking to for a year. The person my H LEFT with our 2 kids and had an affair and was cold and indifferent for at least 6 months before the bomb, going out at nights and coming home at 5 in the morning, telling me all those lovely compliments about what a mean person I am etc.,lying to me... We are seperated since November 2007. And although I do understand me, I dont owe him fro the way he behaved. It was his shortcoming and not mine.
It's me guys, Kalni=Maria. I did not give him up, didnt run away to take a sabatical (I think you call it), didnt stop talking to him or wanting to ML with him, didnt tell him he was ugly, fat, didnt accuse him for everything that went wrong on this earth.
And, after all that, (some may sound serious some not to you, but WERE hurting me TOO much), I gave up a lot to be here and see if my donkey is alive. I gave him the benefit of the doubt so to speak. Because my family is worth it fb2.
Forrest, if he scared by me,then so be it. I wont change to accommodate him. I am loud and passionate and funny and not rational some times and independet and I can change tires and fix my sink and screw (LOL) furniture together till I get blisters on my palms (lol) and be good at my job (most of the times) and loved and can find any info about anything if I want to, and , and, and...
If he is afraid of me, then...the door is open. Enough with me changing to accommodate his weaknesses. I told Bobbi last night it feels strange to change my attitude to "if you cant give it to me fine, I will get it anyway". I 've been thinking if I go into this marriage the way I feel now, in 2 years I will have an affair. How great will that be?
FG, my surprise for yesterday was I didnt kick him out. the day before yesterday I bought him a belt I had noticed he needed. Today, I will call him. K
