Standing on the Edge

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Thanks Msm. Its such a weird place. I know I am playing a waiting game. I can't pursue too hard or she will run.

And yes, I believe she has some self esteem issues. At times the issues seem overwhelming and I don't think I would hold out if it wasnt for our D.

And then we have a day like today. She calls and wants to pick us up to go to her uncle's for the superbowl game. We're not into football, but there is food and great commercials (usually), and some funny commentary from her uncle.

She was very receptive to my comments, laughed at my jokes, etc, even took care of our d when there was a discipline issue ( that's new for her).

She took me back home after and we had pleasant non-R sharing.

So tonight she is very different. She is smiling, joking, etc.

I don't presume she is ready to come running back to me just because she has an up day.

In fact, it kind of makes me apprehensive. She treated me so badly last year that I do not want to repeat anything like that.

So I kept it very even keel. I thought how nice it would be to get back home and not have to worry about her blowing up.

I really don't know if I can ride the rollercoaster with her again. I hope she changes.