SO this weekend went by great. W and I have been getting along really well. Almost like before all this crap happened. Of course I have not talked any R and I did give her a reprieve on moving out of son's room until next weekend so she can prepare for her first day a work Monday.(has not worked in over a year). I did buy her a nice pen to use on her first day at work. I was going to give it to her tonight but decided to just put in on her car seat so she will see it in the morning. I actually had a dream last night about some intimacy happening between wife and me. I have not had a dream like that in over 2 years. Today I had a thought of asking W if instead of getting me something for my B-day this month if she would go to the movies with me and see "Fireproof" but I am not sure yet. I am kind of stuck in a quandary. I have tried so many times to fix my old Marriage... to fix our old relationship and nothing has worked. I am thinking If I could just let go of the past... not talk R at all but just keep building on what seems to have started this last week.... Maybe... just maybe a new R will rise from the ashes of the old. Like forget about rebuilding the old marriage. Just start over fresh. I think it would work... The only problem I will have is the elephant that was always in the room would just move to the inside of my head. It is something that needs to be resolved eventually... but maybe I could put it aside for now and build on our relationship and then when it is stronger W and I will be able to deal with it. Wife has issues also and hopefully I can help her out. I feel her relaxing a little more around me. We are talking allot about "nothing" this weekend. I mean this is good because before we only spoke to each other about things that needed to be talked about. Well got ta go later Doc
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
