Well, H brought D4 back early so that he could study. He is studying for Master this week. At first I wanted to say no, because I knew he was going to do this, but why should she have to put up with him being mad if I said no?? So I took her back early of course. Didn't have anything planned anyway, so it's not as if it's a huge thang.
Ya'll are going to yell at me. I did sit down and talk to him a little bit today. Not about R for the most part, but just about life. I listened to him. I didn't complain to him. He wanted a half-hug on the way out the door and I gave it to him. He stayed for about 20 minutes. It was nice to talk. I like talking to him! I just hate talking to him when he's got that wench there and it makes me feel bad. Maybe he feels bad, because he knows how it looks. Maybe he feels stuck because he offered her this for two weeks, and what else can he do?? BUT IF IT WERE ME, the wench woulda been outta my house. I wouldn't have let someone move in with me that soon after having problems with my W. Boundaries. Neither of us has 'em.
So then he texted me and said thanks for talking. I said it's just hard. The stitch is hard. He said sorry that he is the cause of so much pain ("poor pity me"). I told him he wasn't the cause, the stitch was the cause. Asked him about counseling tomorrow. He said he is still going. I thought we were both going, but he wants to go alone, and honestly, I think that is better. He won't feel ganged up on. And he can work through some stuff with her, before we have to face each other. I think he'll feel more comfortable that way and that's what I want. So I told him I would give him the appointment and he appreciated that.
So that was about it. Hmm...back to my cycle picture. This is him being nice. So next comes me being hurt (in theory)....so I'm going to wait for that.
Mel
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
