These thoughts, what I've written so far, have been with me for a long time - I started writing about such things several weeks ago, and had even reached the point where I didn't want to work on my M at all anymore and wondered if it would be best for me to leave this board...
I'm so glad you are still here. The things you share are helpful to me.
Originally Posted By: healthydad
My distancing from her has nothing to do with her coldness or anger when she come by to pick up S2, nor is it because of her manipulative threats to call the police and claim that I intimidate her - my distance comes from opening my eyes to a lot of what I had given up in order to maintain this M...what I had given up in order to feel loved by her...and I just can't do that anymore.
Thanks for sharing that. I suspect that if I leave, (and I probably will) that I will find that the same will be true for me.
Originally Posted By: healthydad
We should be complete - and our partners should be complete in themselves - so that we have our own spheres of life - and when we come together, we simply overlap in a shared space - without have to have one sphere subsume another.
I agree. I like the symbolism of the Vesica Piscis.
Originally Posted By: healthydad
And my interest in her has nothing to do with B. It is, quite simply, an attraction to someone that came to me very unexpectedly - I was not searching or looking for anyone - I was doing the opposite, in fact, I was staying away from anyone that showed any kind of interest in me...so it's still very much a surprise to me.
Funny how it seems to go that way so often.
I know it's not the right time for you, and who knows what will come of it, but still what a wonderful gift.
