Quote: There are two big questions: 1. What do you want to do? 2. What will bring you closer to your goal?
I don't know--how's that for an answer?
1. To be completely honest, I'll give you what is going on in my head. There is the hassle of travelling with the kids, by myself, on a plane, renting a car late at night, driving unfamiliar territory and dealing with them alone for 5 days. However, once we are there and the travel is over, the potential to have fun and just do what we want is high. I can handle them on my own, I know that, just sometimes you need down time, and that won't be possible on my own. Though, I won't have to be worrying the entire time that H is going to get mad at their behavior, so that stress is removed. Also, and this is the nastiest part of me talking, if H doesn't go, I think it sends a big signal to the kids and the world (relatives), that he just doesn't want to deal with the family and makes him the bad guy. I know it is bad to feel that way, but I do. I guess I'm tired of protecting him. I'll never say a bad word to the kids about him, but actions have to speak to even a 4 and 6 year old. So if I stay home, what message does that send them? And I don't know if I want 5 days to myself, I'd be very lonely, I know that. Though it could be good for me. So there are pros and cons to both. As always.
2. My big goal is to leave the door wide open for H to desire to work on the marriage and do nothing in anger or haste that would close the door. I don't know how Disney impacts this goal.
