It seems to be working! Sometimes....

[sandycay]

sonshyn,

I've tried to write this post a few different time because I don't want to seem to be a downer and not offer hope. Because there's always hope but the truth is:..... Yes, I often feel unsafe and the shoe could drop at any moment.

I ask myself why and that's what is important....

because he did it once he can do it again (but so could anyone else in your future)

He has free will (proved that once)

He's been to Disney World (I'm the same old state fair)

Not becuase of anything he has done (barring the last incident).

I think these feeling will get better after time, but that was part of what was discouraging about this recent incident is that it brought all that back and it was getting better. So, I hope it gets better again.

As far as the anxiety.... girl I take Wellbutrin because I've never been depressed thru out the whole thing but anxiety was killing me. Hopefully I will come off them in the future, my goal was after our one year reconcillation mark. Who knows about that though.