I think you would be better off starting out in newcomers tbh. While you do have a SSM, it sounds like you have other issues to work through first and would most likely get more help over there. You have to keep bumping your thread to get it looked at though.

Spellfire aka Mike

"Women do not like controlling men. They respect and are attracted to men who control themselves. They ultimately are repelled by men who allow themselves to be controlled." -S&A