Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

Well of course - grew up with Brenda Warner so I have to cheer on the Cardinal.

I am doing ok. Dont like having to move on with my life without hopes of getting back wiht xh. BUT I truly think that is what you do. Hanging on to what was is not healthy - and even if we ever did get back together what was is over and what is forward is what will be. (jeez that was a bit philosophical). But it is the truth.

God has really really put on my heart lately (via the Word- Isaiah 43) to STOP looking backwards and too look ahead and look for Him. so that is what I am trying hard to do.

Still can't see xh - too much love in my heart EVEN STILL. Still dream about him - and the family we cuold have..but trying not to stay there.

Also I am working on some pretty heavy duty stuff through counseling. (check this out the talk isn't about xh anymore - it is about me!! now that is progress ha!)

Lastly my sister is getting married in May and I have to go back "home" where I have to face what WAS. UGH! Making sure I go back lean and mean.