I was away but now back. Not visiting the board everyday really got me down. I think this BB really helps keeps me focused and not dwell on the uncontrollable. I started thinking the worst and my imagination ran wild. Then I got so anxious about coming back. But I DB'd my as* off. Acting 'as if' and everything went smoothly.
I am really happy with myself at the moment. My emotions have calmed down a lot and my expectations are low. There is a bit of a calm in my M, no improvement but no backtracking either. I guess what I am trying to say is that I have peace. I have not had peace for a long time but peace is SOOOOOO Good. It is the closest thing to happiness and what I have been praying for. I really hope that I can find peace no matter what my situation is.
Thanks everyone for listening.
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
