Mockers, thank you for that wonderful list of things, I am going to print it out and refer to it often. Seems like at this point I need to tell me feet to walk, everything that was once so simple appears to be an effort. But I'm making the effort. I'm moving, trying not to withdrawl too much.
KAW, I hear what you are saying, I need to back off and let him deal with the stuff on his own, in his own way. I need to be strong and support the journey he is on. He made the hotel reservation for this length of time, that is where the timeline comes from. I don't know what his plans are going to be. I am going away this weekend and he will have the boys on his own on Friday and Saturday night. I have no idea what Sunday night will bring.
I am a bit fearful, of course. I'm fearful that he'll come back, but not for the right reasons and we will continue where we were and it will build up again and he'll become unhappy. I'm scared he is going to leave and that is the end. But as sage is saying, I must have faith, leave fear at the door. Either way, I will be okay. Just may take a bit of time. A weekend with dad will do the kids wonders.
