Dear dear snodderly how I wish I could meet you in person and give you a big thank you hug.Your wise and encouraging comments over the past 18 months have given me so much comfort and support.The next few months are going to be hard. He will struggle with the settlement and no doubt feel resentment at it too. After that, when things subside, I feel strongly that he will reappear in my life. But It could be many many years ahead so I must put that thought out of my head and say right now hes gone, life is as it is, and Im on my own.I have a lot to thank God for.