A, You must take care of yourself, both emotionally spiritually, physically and financially. Whether your h will return or not, you still have to find a way to survive. You must continue on your own journey and act as if he's not going to return. One day, he will reach out to you, but not completely at this time. Do what is best for you now.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
