Trying flirting on for size!

[ACJ]

Thank you for all your prayers it is really appreciated. I haven't spoken to either my mum or brother since but I will need to phone the latter today as it is his wife's birthday today. I'm a bit calmer now I've done some research but until they both have thier test results it is an unknown entity.

One thing I will say is that when H and I were together I would have worried myself to death about this and there would have been a lot of tears. He always used to tell me that I shouldn't worry about something until it has happened. There have been no tears (yet) and this news has not been my sole focus. So I guess I learned at long last to do what he always suggested. However, I'm not sure whether that I should be glad about this or worry because I have become hard!!!!!!!!