Thanks for your good wishes. The waiting I can do. But I simply cant exist on my pension and his voluntary payments were infrequent,to say the least.So divorce is really my only option. That doesnt mean Ive given up. Im convinced he still cares about me very much but is nowhere near facing up to whats happened in his mlc confusion.His history is one woman after another and i cant see that changing. I hope some day he will reach out to me again but as you say I must look after myself and act as if hes not coming back.