The weekends are hard. The pain is so much that it seems physical sometimes. You did it, though. Continue to take one day at a time (one hour at a time if you need to).
I agree that your H sounds confused and in pain. Someone posted to me early on in all this - Soupman, I think - to be aware of my H's pain, because it's there. This is something that has really helped me, although at times it seems to be hard to see it - espescially when I'm angry at him.
Continue to do things for yourself, and make plans with your children and supportive friends. Be proud of yourself for taking care of the children on your own. I have found this to be one of the blessings which has come out of this awful time.
I think you're right to wait a bit in returning his call. It was kind of you to have included him in the pictures with S4. This shows him your strength. Hang in there.
Have you seen the book Just Enough Light for the Step I'm On by Stormie Omartian? I have just gotten it, and it seems good. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Oh, that quote form my thread - I'm really not sure who wrote it - maybe Elizabeth Barrett Browning? (So much for being an English major? Fun to already be forgetful.) I think the other part is "launch off into the deep, let the shoreline go." Maybe this will ring some bells for someone here or maybe I can find it on some sort of quote search? Not too helpful. If I find it I'll let you know.
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"Somehow we survive, and tenderness frustrated does not wither." Dennis Brutus, South African poet
"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
Friedrich Nietzsche
