I understand your exasperation with your situation, really I do.
I also read your thread in Hopefulness.
The thing is, there are people here who would like to be able to reach out to you and help you, but you are so darn flippant about everything.
It is on the borderline of being rude.
If you want more support, then post here in MLC.
Believe me when I tell you that there are many who have already walked in your shoes who can give you sage advice that may actually help you move along a little faster.
(((hugs)))
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.