I am here. \:\) Went to HS basketball game tonight and had a good time. H picked up D4 and I walked out the door behind him. So it was nice to be able to show him I had someplace to be. lmao. He asked how I was and I said fine and asked how s13 was. I have given up asking how H is. I'm trying really hard to not be interested. No, I'm NOT interested because what he says hurts. So I don't ask so that I don't get hurt. I can tell that really hurts him, and I sympathize, but really, not my problem. Move that wench out and we'll talk.

I tried calling base legal today but they must have been busy cause they didn't answer the phone. i think it's interesting that his 1st shirt knows about this and still condones it. Makes you wonder. Whatever, though. ;\)

We go to C Monday morning and I am wondering how that will go. I gave him the same paperwork she gave me and he didn't seem too interested in filling it out. The 8 page letter I wrote was in there, too, so we'll see. He won't find it unless he starts the paperwork. Not trying to hide anything, but curious as to how long it takes it to get found, if it ever does, which means something in itself. I did not ask him to come back in the letter. I did not even say sorry. I just offered up a sort of timeline of events, and some of the things that i felt contributed to how i felt at the time. and let it go.

i can't be responsible for his choices anymore, which is hard, because I have felt responsible for his choices the last 13 years. And it's just really hard to let go of something you've been doing for the last 13 years!!!!

Well, since I am alone, I know I should be cleaning or something, but I am not. I am going to watch "The Women" instead. See ya'll tomorrow!

Mel

"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."

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