We have done a lot of taking, mostly me, so now he knows all my thoughts and feeleings. I told him I was still optimistic this would work out, he said he was not. He said that he does not feel like the man in the commercial who screams I love this woman in the middle of the courtyard when he gives her a ring. I asked about a few dates in the past year where it felt like this was true, and he said, but this feeling should be everyday. I told him I had thoughts on the subject, but I didn't think I would hold any weight with them and to talk to my boss about it when he speaks to her. I think it goes to the perfectionism, every day should be this high and nothing less is acceptable.
I think I need to shut up now and let him do some thinking. I printed off a list of books with amazon reviews and was going to just give it to him along with some info about retrouvaille and he can do with it what he likes.
There are some ways where I want to keep reaching out and talking to him as we are doing more than ever before and other thoughts where I should just back off. His only brother just had twins, so that was weird when my BIL said your an aunt, and I thought, well, probably not.
H said, are you going to come to hospital tomorrow (2 hour drive), I said do you want me there. And then it was, if you want to come. I told him it was his decision, I would be very happy to go. He said, it would give us time to be together if we go.
