Hang in there. You are doing beautifully during a really painful time. Although your support system is small, I think in some ways it is good not to have too many people know. Often it is so hard for them to see you hurting so, that they aren't as supportive while you stand for your marriage. My own parents know nothing (only my stepmother, who is able to be more objective). My H has told his parents, but they are the only family who know. You also have us here, although I know that's not the same thing. Your family remains in my prayers.
And - you aren't being selfish at all.
Mockers2
"Somehow we survive, and tenderness frustrated does not wither." Dennis Brutus, South African poet
"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
Friedrich Nietzsche
