Waiting for the Happily Ever After Part

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((((((Jackie)))))

So sorry you're hurting so right now. Seems you've gotten good advice and support. I agree that fighting a separation would make things worse, as scary as a separation sounds at this point. You have good ideas of working on yourself to make yourself happy and to feel more fulfilled. Also good is giving your H the space he needs.

I think you did a great job in talking with him the other night. Maybe pattern your interactions with him that way. Show him that you are taking care of yourself, developing new interests. Stay busy and active, and keep yourself and the boys around friends and family who are supportive. Continue to act as if. Try not to awfulize as this does nothing positive to your PMA or your interactions with H.

I understand the overwhelming fears that surface when the topic of separation/D come up. I have also feared being a single parent and fast-forwarded to when the children are older, going to functions, etc. Try to stop this as much as you can, although for a time it may be near to impossible. You are not at the point of having to cross this bridge yet.

The ideas for time alone for you are excellent. It seems there has to be this delicate balance of individual time, couple time and family time, which is elusive. I think the fact that you are recognizing these things is good.

Again, (((((Jackie)))), so sorry for you to be feeling so much pain right now. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.