K, I happen to think its not what we do but how we do it that counts. Have you heard of "loving detachment" and is it another load of BS like "love is a decision"? And I would think you may have to pay dearly to revive a dead "donkey" (not sure where the donkey came from, I'm guessing its a derivative of "dumb ass ..."). You too may not be able to escape the price you pay but as FG says you have to ask yourself "is it worth the price?" Looks like it is in your case or you wouldn't be here duking it out to the wire. I'd like to see what happens when 8 weeks comes by and all your expectations are not met. And like you keep saying ... "we'll see".