I really think the A's would have come out by now from her if she knew or suspected something. I still feel bringing the A's out now would only hurt us and especially her. At some point in the future it may be the right time.

lets not even talk about the As.
Over and done with .... lets work on *YOU~*.
Lets work from today on.
Go to Barnes and Noble and get those 2 books.

I read this last nite and thought of you and I.

pg 366 PM.
Having the kind of marriage you want often involves a personal Metamorphosis.

Pleas read the first paragraph on pg. 367.
I thought of you also.
part C.
she knows he's sold out before and figures he is not serious and will back down again.

You keep telling her you want more and then when she says no you settle .
SETTLE .... YOU SETTLE for less instead of doing what S&A said.
he says it so much better than I could.

So she never has to call your bluff, she can always stay comfortable the way things are.
You are telling her you dont quite want it enough either by backing down.
I am not saying you follow her around. Quite the contrary do what S&A said.

I think know if you do what he is saying things will change.


MY H after @4 years here?
B/c I have finally started to live for me and change me with no expectation of what he will or wont do?
Has decided to come along.
He either has to ?
Or he cant play with me anymore.
I lived in fear of what if too , Cinco.
F^Ck what if?

You are love , you are life, about time to start showing it, whether you think it will change things or not.
For you.

Follow S&A advice and get the books.
I would even love to follow your success.
I know when you put your mind to this you are going to succeed.
And by that I mean finally being content and Happy.
Even if she decides she still doesn't want to play with you?
You will be strong enough to know it is ok and you will still be happy.

Do this and maybe it will just maybe scratch the surface.
Look how damn long I was digging?
It took me to stop living in fear of myself and to finally love myself to scratch that damn surface.
It may only be a damn paper cut ... but at least it is "open"


I really love ya honey...

I know you can do this.
NOW is the time. Are you ready????? To have what you keep saying you want?
Xoxoxo God bless,
Ali