I really think the A's would have come out by now from her if she knew or suspected something. I still feel bringing the A's out now would only hurt us and especially her. At some point in the future it may be the right time.
Her only lack of trust in me is just as she has said... All about the fear that I might leave her.
About a week ago she even said I trust you H. I allow you to do the things that you like to do, like your band stuff, because I do trust you.
I trust her as well. We have never had a jealous love for each other. I can't imagine ever snooping to try to find out what she is up to. She does not snoop on me either. It's just not in our nature.
Of course I have regret about violating her trust in me. I was so weak to have ever done this. It was a terrible mistake, yet in a way it made me see that I want the passion back in my M.
