Ok, journaling my thoughts. I don't know what I'm thinking right now.

H is TDY again for 6 wks. He is close enough that he has been coming home on weekends. He has been very loving for awhile now. Last weekend I actually took the boys to him and he had gotten me a candle & card b/c he knew that taking care of the boys has not been an easy chore (especially on a road trip).

Now the part that bothers me. For some reason, my radar has been up just by little things. Nothing that would probably bother a "normal" person -- just bothers a person that has been cheated on so many times by their H.

We knew he would have to stay there for at least one weekend to do some volunteer work, but for some reason, my radar has been up and I thought to myself "if he says he has to stay THIS weekend, I'm going to really wonder if something is up." Up until this a.m., he had been saying he was going to come home. Now, after not calling last night & supposedly falling asleep in his clothes and that's why he didn't call, he has to stay there this weekend.

Ok, for those of you who have been cheated on, you are going to fully understand my thinking. I know I'm probably just "making things up," but I'm still bothered for some reason.

Last edited by RedHeadWife; 01/30/09 03:14 PM.
Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10