I'll post again in the morning but the talk this morning had a lot to do with keeping the lines of communication open. We have been stuck in a place where we'd just avoid the tuff topics for so long that it is hard to get things started again. Neither of us wanted to rock the boat or start a fight, so our interaction turned to just politics, religion, our D16 and day to day stuff, grocery list and the like.
We got so we never talked about how we feel about one another and our needs, wants and desires. I feel like the lines of communication are open again. I intend to keep them open too.
The lack of trust... this I will have to work on because if there is no change from the way we are now I can't stay. I have to let her know I am here trying so hard to make this work for us again.
The TV and the radio... yes these are escapes. I guess in the olden days it would have been books.. She is avoiding really looking at the pain. I have done the same with my music and alcohol.
We are taking a step in the right direction at least. I hope I can keep us talking now.
